Please Help me....

[user13]

I am a teenage girl and recently, over the summer vacation, I decided that I was not happy with my body image. I was not overweight, and i was aware of that. (I was about 125lbs.) However, I figured that it couldn't hurt to lose a couple pounds. As the media has such an impact on the youth society of today, the first thing i did was cut off carbs almost entirely. I wish I knew then what I know now...For breakfast, I either had a slice of watermelon or an apple or on the days that I felt extremely fat, nothing. I started exercising for an hour or more everyday and refused to cheat by cutting that hour even one minute short. I usually skipped lunch and snacks were no longer a part of my vocabulary. My parents didn't really notice until several days into the diet when they noticed that I was no longer eating any sweets and dinner was reduced to a sthingyful of rice, if any, and lots of vegetables. Pound after pound, I began shrinking. Of course, I heard the comments that enlightened me, "You've lost so much weight! you look great!" and I heard comments from my parents that infuriated me, "eat more!" "you're too young to be dieting!" It started off with me wanting to lose 5lbs..graduated to 10lbs. and then after i'd lost 15lbs. I could no longer control it..Nearing the end of the summer vacation, I'd lost a total of 25 pounds. I now weigh less than 100 lbs. Which, for my height is supposedly dangerously underweight. My concerned parents took me to the doctor and basically, i was forced to answer several questions and promise to eat more and exercise less. One month since my doctor's visit, i am still at the exact same weight, give or take a pound. i have improved my eating habits A LOT. it's really amazing how a simple weight loss plan got me eating healthier. I never realized how much fruits and vegetables I lacked and i never paid attention to my unhealthy carb craving. I now eat everything whole wheat and try my best to get my 5 servings of fruit and vegetables daily. For some reason, my craving for sweets of all kinds is no longer present, but people don't believe me when I say this, they'd rather believe that I was just conscious i'd gain weight. Do i have an eating disorder? because people keep telling me that I look underweight (people who knew me before I'd lost the weight) But, when I look in the mirror, I see someone who could still afford to lose at least five pounds. I know that according to the doctor and everyone else it seems ridiculous, but that feeling that I get when I go to a store and am able to fit into size 0 jeans is a feeling that I want to keep. I really try my best to eat more, but I just can't bring myself to eat half as much as I used to...is this normal? What should I do? I feel healthy & in my opinion, i look healthy too. I prefer my current image rather than the one I carried around several months ago...but how do i get my parents to know that I no longer have the ability to eat as much? I don't exercise half as much as I used to..I now do several sit-ups every day...but nothing too strenuous or dangerous...i have another doctor's appointment in about a month or so and i basically need to gain over 15 pounds between now and then to be at a "healthy weight" But, even though I know i need to gain the weight, every time i weigh myself and see that it's gone up by a pound, i freak out and lose my appetite for the rest of the day...help?

[OMGZLOL]

oooooooookay.

firstly, it is normal that you have lost your cravings for sweets. like everything in life, once you've adjusted to something, and it becomes routine, it isn't out of the ordinary to not care about what you were once missing.

it is understandable you can't eat as much as you wish to. your stomach has probably shrunk, and therefore you cannot hold as much food as you once could.

it is IMPORTANT you gain weight. stop exercising, eat whatever you can. your health is far more IMPORTANT than what you look like.

the media, society, they contribute to imperfections we find in ourselves and magnify them by a million. people feel like they have to be PERFECT, when that is not the case. no-one is perfect.
these people in magazines are air-brushed to look as close to perfect as possible.
but they are not perfect.

the ONLY way you can change how you feel toward gaining weight, is realising that being thin doesn't make you perfection.
you can be as close to perfect being HEALTHY, as you can being UNHEALTHY.
there will ALWAYS be something about your image that brings you down, because that is how it works. you are not perfect, and it's when you REALISE that and ACCEPT that, that you can move on and learn to love yourself for who you ARE, not who you want to BE.